Sunday, February 5, 2012

Of all the gin joints in all the world

A few years ago (almost to the day), I was taking a social dance class. We were preparing to perform a mambo for a university function and so we had dance partners assigned, as opposed to our usual pattern of rotating every few minutes. My partner (her name is Michelle) was fun to dance with and talk with. She also happened to be gorgeous - and she seemed interested.

But social dance classes make asking out a little difficult. As a rule, I don't ask girls out in front of other people. It has less to do with the fact that I might get shut down in front of others and more to do with the fact that she's likely to be uncomfortable with it (yes, I plan to propose in private). Since everyone leaves class at the same time, it can be a little difficult to catch someone and ask her out - especially if you go in different directions.

Friday, February 3, 2012

When I grow up

I started writing a blog post about different fields of study and jobs that I've tried or thought about and how none of them has worked out. I realized that much of my introductory material is essentially the same as this post, which I wrote 16 months ago. There are, of course, some differences in what I would emphasize or how I'd phrase things, but it's mostly the same.

The bottom line is that I'm still not really into my research. I suppose it might be a little different if I were in another job. If I were on an assembly line, I could do good work even though I didn't think much of it. But as a researcher, I can't do high-quality work without being fully invested in it. So far, I haven't been fully invested and it's crippled my ability to perform.